The same coin

I am ready for you.
Take me in your arms:
Hold me, make me yours.
I have never wanted you more.
I have never liked you less.
I tremble with fear of you.
I fear for you.
You taste like silent prayers and growing distance and buried rage.
I am ready to say goodbye.

I am ready to say goodbye.
You taste like silent prayers and growing distance and buried rage.
I fear for you.
I tremble with fear of you.
I have never wanted you less.
I have never liked you more.
Hold me, make me yours.
Take me in your arms:
I am ready for you.

So much.

So much has happened… I need a numbered list to stay organized. 

1. I turned 19 today. I was offered the drinks menu both times today…so I must be looking older? I dunno. It’s strange. I feel older, but I don’t feel ready to be older. Although I had a great day with family and friends, it was bittersweet because…
2. One of my close friends is moving to LA over the summer… IMMA MISS YOU JULIA
3. Said goodbye to my roommate Rachel, who moved out today. She is such a sweetheart and i’m going to miss her so much.
4. Birthday present from Essie= one poster of Taylor Lautner in Abduction with the phrase “I am going to kill all of your friends on Facebook” added onto it. <3
5. So, the only reason i’m back at college again is so that I can work for four days straight and get some $$$. I legit cannot believe that my Freshman year of college is already over with. Where did the time go? I miss my friends. And I hate saying goodbye. As my friend Sydney said best, “I hate goodbyes. So i just don’t do them.”
   I might consider doing that next year.
6. I’m also realizing how thankful I am for what I have. Family and friends who care, a fantastic education, a fulfilling job… I know that everything I have in my life I should be thankful for. So. Yeah.
7. So thanks (for anyone reading this) for following my blog! And having some sort of good-ish opinion about the stuff I write about and read!